What was I doing a year ago? Probably playing Call of Duty 4, hanging out with friends, going to movies, spending time with my fam, working.....
Nowadays, I look at my daily routine and it's pretty much the same as it was a year ago. I still can't get enough Call of Duty. I still work at UPS every night doing what I've done for the past five years. And I still wake up late and go meet someone from my family for lunch. Same basic routine. Except back then I could (and would) hear a comforting voice whenever I wanted every day. It was just a phone call away. And when I would hear it I wouldn't feel any different, but if I could hear it now I would be freaking out. It wasn't a huge part of my day. It was taken for granted. But it was there every day. And I miss it more than anything right now.
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I miss it too Joshie--more than you will ever know. It sucks. I took it for granted too. I'd give anything for a phone call:(
I miss home. But I miss the "home" that was familiar and comforting.
As I said one day one facebook. I really think you should be able to get phone calls from heaven on Christmas and mother's day. I would give anything to be able to talk to my mom again too. I used to actually pick up my phone to call her for a split second. I'm so sorry your family has to go through this too.
DITTO!!!
I miss her so much. Like Manda, I miss our old life. It was so easy and fun. Hardly a worry. Nothing is comfortable anymore.
Dang her for leaving...
Hi Josh, Change it the only constant in earth life. It seems death becomes part of your life, doesn't it?
What I hear about you, Josh is the love and admiration of your sisters for you. It seems you are the rock. Tell Megan hello.
Oh how I wish I could just call her once in a while and ask her what to do, or just hear her say "Hi, hon..", or tell her something I did good and know she was so proud of me. No one makes me feel like that any more. I just need a quick "fix" and then I am sure I could carry on for a few more months. Now I don't know how to carry on from day to day. Everyone needs their mom, even when you are old like me. I miss her more and more every day. I am just so glad we all have each other. Hang in there, we understand and we love you.
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